On the day I left Hangzhou, I got into a car driven by my friend's parent, heading to my next destination. While chatting with my friend's mother, I couldn't help but feel envious of their family.

The reason was that I watched my friend and his mother talk and laugh together so easily. He could freely connect his phone via Bluetooth and play his NetEase Music playlist in the car, openly chatting about his hobbies and interests.

Meanwhile, I was taught from a young age to "be mainstream"—all my hobbies and interests had to be conventional. My parents were also rather overbearing. Forget about whether I'd dare to connect Bluetooth in my family's car—I've barely even ridden in my dad's car my whole life.

So all these factors shaped my personality of "not daring to casually reveal my interests and hobbies in public." To put it plainly, it's just a lack of confidence after years of being criticized for having interests that "don't fit in."

Maybe when I buy my own car someday, the first thing I'll do is sit inside, connect the Bluetooth, crank the volume all the way up, and just enjoy my music. Pretty absurd, isn't it? (laughs)